Been looking at houses lately. It’s kind of crazy to think that buying a house is the next step in my journey, but… here we are. I have been looking in my current city, but…the area is so questionable in places. Some areas are really nice while others scare me a bit. It’s refreshing to know that I can at least afford some of the houses for sale in this area. I thought for so long that I wouldn’t be able to afford a house at all, but… I think the scariest part is saving up a down payment.
After the wedding, we have to work our savings back up. Which isn’t so bad, and shouldn’t take too long. Honestly though, all these houses, I just want to build a house in the woods. A cozy little cabin next to a small river. With a nice porch that I can put a porch swing on. With comfy pillows and a little table that I can wheel out in front of me. Then I could write on it surrounded by the sounds of nature. So many of these houses are on busy streets or have neighbors right next to you… I don’t want to deal with any of that. I mean, sure, sometimes you can get lucky enough to have a nice neighbor, but…all the neighbors I’ve had haven’t been great. Especially at our last place in Ayer. They were constantly fighting and screaming and throwing stuff around… Ugh. I don’t want to remember that place.
But anyway. I feel like if I’m going to spend a bunch of money on a house, I want it to be somewhere that I feel I can settle down. I don’t want to buy a house only to uproot and want to sell it a few years later. I like the idea of buying a house in Vermont, or even somewhere in New Hampshire. Out there? I could get so much more bang for my buck. And, more chances of having a beautiful house somewhere in the woods. But…the only thing that kind of throws everything out is my job. They don’t allow full time remote employees so… I’m kind of stranded in Massachusetts. And I hate it here. Since we moved away from Connecticut I never really liked Massachusetts much. Everyone is in SUCH a hurry all of the time. Manners aren’t first instinct. And traffic is a JOKE. It’s also sooo expensive to live here. Which is why I live where I do. I can’t get any closer to my office without paying an obscene amount in rent. Which is crazy to me!
But…oh well. Until I can make some bigger moves, here we are. I’ll keep positive in the sense that I can control how I react to situations and if someone is rude to me, I can be polite back. Things will start looking up soon.
At least, one can dream.